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Feeling Bad Monday, Jun. 09, 2003 - 12:15 am ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Well maybe here's Lame Entry #2. Since Friday night I have not been feeling good. My big dream added some insight into why, but I still don't have a full explanation. More importantly, what can I do to feel great again? Maybe I just want to feel bad, because the idea of pondering that question sounds awful. I really should go to bed, but I feel so unsatisfied I hate to. I have no idea what would make me feel better. I really hate when I start feeling disappointed in people. Maybe my expectations are too high, or I'm just too attached to others' behavior or some of both. Suspending my expectations would be great, I think. Just let go and enjoy the ride. The ride doesn't feel very enjoyable right now. Please Universe, help me. I feel like just babbling and whining on about this, but would that really do me any good? Doubtful. I think I tired myself out. I was having such fun after Flipside, and I was doing things that often overwhelm me. So I think now I'm just overwhelmed. I feel like something cool could happen that would help pull me out of this, but I also feel like I'd have to make that cool thing happen, and I don't feel up to making things happen right now. Oh please Universe send help.
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