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It's All Play Tuesday, Jun. 03, 2003 - 6:28 pm ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I had all these plans for things I was going to do yesterday and today. Well it was mostly planning out my summer type things. I have done some of it, but I'm realizing that it's not as much work as I thought it would be. But I'm not doing much else either. I'm mostly just screwing around online. And I realized today that I think what's going on is I'm trying to figure out what I "should" be doing, and there isn't really anything. No one is counting on me for anything at all, it's all just stuff I want to do. But I feel like I can't do stuff I want to do until the stuff I should do is done. I can't go play until my homework is done. But it's all play! So right now I'm feeling kind of blocked about it all. I'm trying to obsess about the things I "should" be doing that I'm not doing, but there's not much to obsess about, so I've spent yesterday and today mostly feeling confused. I think that realizing this and writing about it here, and the planning that I did do today, will all greatly help me towards doing these things that I want to do, starting tomorrow. Yesterday and today have been a struggle, but what a new and welcome struggle it is!
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today's music: Joseph soundtrack today's DVD: Monkees
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